Using My Intuition to Heal

It took me almost a full decade of physical issues to finally learn this painful lesson:

Nobody can love you more than you love yourself.

When I was healing, I took matters into my own hands, healed all aspects of self, and reclaimed my health identity.

THIS ^ is the secret to achieving true healing.

The western medical system that we all know and are supposed to love completely failed me. After countless doctor visits, prescriptions to cover things up that were so much deeper, and tests that led to no answers, I reached my breaking point. I encountered so many red flags that at the time I wasn’t empowered enough to challenge.

I went to my gynecologist 3 years in a row with periods that were getting heavier and more painful every year. 3 years in a row – all he could offer me was to take more pain medications. 🚩

I went to two separate gastroenterologists who prescribed medications, ran a gut analysis on 3 separate occasions, a colonoscopy, and found “nothing.” Meanwhile I was hardly ever going to the bathroom, had bloating like a 5-month pregnant person and a mystery skin rash all over my body. In hindsight – I now know how much of a risk factor these GI symptoms are for pelvic organ prolapse, which I later developed. 🚩🚩

I developed a terrible skin rash, which would later be diagnosed as guttate psoriasis, an autoimmune disease. I was certain my diet and lifestyle played a part. When I asked my dermatologist what I could do about my diet to help she said, “it’s not related to your diet and there’s nothing you can do aside hope that topical steroids and UVB light therapy work or else you’ll have to go on a lifelong medication.” 🚩🚩🚩

First, hormone imbalance. Then, GI dysfunction. And finally, an autoimmune disease.

That was the final straw.

I just KNEW in my soul how incorrect my dermatologist was. Sure, I followed her prescription of topical steroids and UVB therapy, but I also went on a strict anti-inflammatory diet, stopped the extreme exercise I was doing and just let myself sulk at the rock bottom I was experiencing and tried to power through.

I have grieved so many parts of my story, and that is an important part of the process. Everything that happened is for a reason. Without it, I would have never learned the true, permanent solution to healing. I would never be here right now sharing it with you. As of now, it has been almost 4 years since I was diagnosed with guttate psoriasis. Although the experience only physically wounded my body for about 6 months, it was truly a traumatic experience living in a body that I had no control over and couldn’t see any true end in sight. It left a deep mark on me and I never felt 100% back to myself pre-diagnosis.

After the help of my dermatologist and the greater help of my functional medicine physician, I considered myself 70% recovered. I was 100% recovered from psoriasis, but only 70% recovered from the whole body symptoms I was still experiencing. There was a FINAL hump, the final 30% that I couldn’t seem to get over for the last 3 years. Something was missing.

In Summer 2021 I came across Lacy Phillips work. I immediately fell in love with her meditations and manifestation process, and started doing deep healing work and healing to my subconscious. This is when I realized that I wasn’t really over that experience of psoarisis and that even though physically I looked better and didn’t have an active disease, internally I never coped with what happened.

I decided to manifest this final 30% of healing that I needed to get fully back in control of my body. I was still experiencing random on and off bloating with no clear triggers, acne, and period pain on day 1 of my cycle. The most frustrating was the bloating and gut issues because no matter how much I tracked my food and avoided foods, there was no rhyme or reason. The bloating and gut issues were nowhere as severe as previously, but still enough for me to feel out of control and never knowing if garlic or bananas were going to make me bloated that day.

Both through my intuition and the advice of others, I learned that I needed to focus more on emotional healing. Once I put two and two together – that all dis-ease of the body is dis-ease of the soul (energetic body, emotions, etc.), it felt like everything clicked. The Universe truly put the right people and tools in my life at the right time, and this all manifested in perfect timing.

Through this work, I was led to the final missing piece of the puzzle in my healing journey. I was able to give my body the medicine it always needed. I haven’t felt this good in my body in 10 years and I feel like I hit the reset button and gave myself a fresh start. In my deep cocoon over the last 6 months, I have been figuring out how to show up better and more authentically myself. I strongly believe my purpose in life is to help teach others how to tune into the wisdom of their body and to heal the physical body on an energetic level.

I’ve been there. I’ve been at rock bottom in my own body, and I did what we’re all “supposed to do.” I trusted that the doctors and medical system had my best interest at heart, but the truth is, they didn’t.

For true healing to take place, we need to take our power back, and tune into the wisdom of our body to heal.